Mutterings & Musings

I’m so ashamed and angry at myself. I’ve pretty much gained all the weight I lost. Seven months of hard work gone in four months. I don’t even have a good excuse for it. Just me being stupid. Winter kicked my ass hard. I was depressed about a number of things and I pigged out. I kept saying I’ll get back on Atkins, but I never did. I need to get back on track or I never will.

Off Atkins:
I’m out of breath a lot
My left knee hurts
I feel tired all the time
My heart races for no reason
I have to shop in the fat girl section
The dark patches of skin come back

On Atkins:
I feel great
My skin is clear
I can wear cute clothes
My joints don’t hurt
I feel like I can take on the world!

Right now we are so broke, so I’m eating for cheap. But on the 1st of April I’m going back. I’m not going to be a fool!

Okay. Today I’m going back on Induction, again. I had a cherry coke and finished off the last of the sugar cookies I bought yesterday. I cooked up all the frozen brussel sprouts so I wouldn’t have to stay in the kitchen any more than I have to. I have two chicken breasts de thawing in the fridge. I cheate dand bought some precooked frozen chicken. I know it has food starches in it, but it’s better than a whole pizza, ya?!

I completely ruined my own challenge. I swear to god those oreos had a gun to my head! Now I feel bloated and I had heart burn. -groans- Why am I doing this to myself? Tomorrow I’m going to start over. At least I haven’t bought anything so the other half of the challenge is still good to go!

I completely forgot to mention that I had made up my first batch of Atkins Rev Rolls. Not bad for my first time! They taste very good when dipped in the soup I made up. Though I may leave them in the oven a bit longer. I think I baked them for 30 minutes. I may try 35 min. next time. They seem pretty sturdy enough to make a sandwich out of them. Here’s the recipe if anyone is curious:

Atkins Revolution Rolls
Makes 6 rolls.

3 large eggs (1.8 )
1 1/2 ounces cream cheese, softened (1.5)
1/2 teaspoon onion powder (0.7)*
1 pinch salt (0)
1/8 teaspoon cream of tartar (0.3)

Preheat oven to 300 degrees F. Line a cookie sheet with either wax paper or cooking parchment paper. If using wax paper, butter or oil it. Set aside

Separate the egg whites from the egg yolks. To the egg yolks add the cream cheese and onion powder. Mix well and set aside.

To the egg whites, add the cream of tartar and salt. Beat the egg whites until it forms very stiff peaks.

Fold the egg yolks into the egg whites. Do not overmix because the egg whites will provide the “leavening” for the rolls.

Using two tablespoons, drop the the mixture into 6 equal mounds onto your prepared cookie sheet.

Bake for 30-40 minutes in the middle rack of your oven. Cool completely. Store in the refrigerator in an air tight container.

*May replace the onion powder with 1 packet of Splenda. The carb count remains roughly the same per roll.

Per 1 serving( 1 roll)
Total carbs: 0.8 grams
Fiber: 0 grams
Net Carbs: 0.8grams
Cheese allowance: .25 oz

…and disgusted with myself. I ate a lot of McDonald’s breakfast. I was hungry and it’s what I wanted. But later, thinking about it, I was so mad at myself. So I threatened myself, so to speak. I told myself, if you even touch another non-Atkins friendly food, you can forget about buying the new Sam and Max game. And then I decided to take it further, and wrap up my horrible spending habit and junk food habit into one. I will only eat Atkins friendly food and only buy myself the essentials for one year. I will also be putting away around $20 every month for that year. So at the end of the year I can splurge on something; if I fail, I will put whatever I had saved up into credit card bills, etc. I’m very excited about this! I think this is exactly what I needed to boost my enthusiasm about losing weight! Oh yeah, paying for my Lord of the Rings Online account counts as the essentials.